the chaotuutts : )

`the CHAOtuts : )

My friends , beloved friends . For once I've actually felt that I've been appreciated by friends . Never once I felt this way . I've always been betrayed by the ones I trusted most before . But now I'm glad I have them :) Yes maybe I do not know them well enough yet , But so far they've been an awesome friend guiding me all this way . They LOVE me & I LOVE them too :)

First of all , Yong JunYi `Mickey WanSean , & Cookies :)

These 3 friends of mine , they have never neglected me in anyways . Anywhere or shall I say Everywhere they plan to go , or anyhow any functions they will sure definitely call me along :) They will never leave me out , 4 of us will always call each other out when we have any plans going on :) yumcha session , outings , movie , & shopping spree . I'm really glad for knowing them i've never regretted since the day I know them until now . When I have my difficulties in my problem , whether it's love crisis or family crisis or friend crisis , they are ALWAYS there for me by my side when I need them most . A shoulder to cry on , & they'll put a smile :) on my face !

As times goes by , we will get to know each other better & more :) That's when we build our friendship more , :) I hope that this friendship will never end . You are the BEST .

FriendsForever , aii ni men ai dao baooo <3

Love ,

CherylTehShuYing :)

`memories

today was just an ordinary normal day . woke up in the afternoon & had nasi lemak for branch :)

then got baack to my bed & slept . don't know why felt so tired . slept till about in the evening woke up , got up & wash up for dinner . had dinner at a steamboat buffet with family nearby my area :) was superb full . god knows why today i ate so much "MEAT" my sister thought i was crazy literally .then after that we head to digital mall , to get printer ink :) next stop was oneutama , popular bookstore :) sister wants to get her books , but ending up there don't have the books she want , so we head home after . that's about my day for today , but somehow or rather i don't know why am i feeling so down & felt like im just in darkness , My eyes are like "panda" eyes now .

i think for now , that's about it . will update more soon :)

When it rains you don't see the sun , but it's there

Hope we can be like that ,

We don't always see each other ,

But we will always be there for each other <3

`maplestory

`MapleStory`Bankai`PrivateServer`Scania :)

recently just started maplestory back : )

but it's private server ! bankai , scania . Been really bored nowadays so i play for the fun of it .

Anyways more updates to come ! cause i'm dead tired , heading to bed now !

NIGHTS all <3>

`the latest me : )

`The ctsy aka CherylTehShuYing `

Okay finally ive decided to update my blog . So much has been happening lately , I dont even know what's actually the right and the wrong thing anymore . Im no longer the girl who knows which is correct or wrong , true or false . I feel so lost now in this world . After ending all this I felt heartbroken my heart seems so empty without you , only you knew who i was , what i am, what i love , where I like to go . Where what how everything about me , you're just the only one that knows , even my own mom don't know me that well as you . I really don't mind that you're gone , my heart will just be fill with emptyness . I dont hope nor wish for more , even getting to see or glance you for a far sight is more than enough than to dream to have you . Getting to talk , wave , hug , text or call on the cell phone , Im more than enough happy & dare not to wish for more. Its like just a miracle , you never knew how i felt because ive never told you . Imissyou alot , so much that no one ever knows . My life is just so complicated & confusing now . I just hope i can go thru this & get over and done with , if it's as simple as it seems . This is not studying abc , So i know . Its difficult . Nothing is easy in this world , Ive promised myself that I will stay strong & go thru all this day by day , if not one day I will faint by the roadside and no one knows about it. Im afraid that ill step my foot back into the world of darkness and shallow place where i can see no lights , :(

` I don't want to say I miss you , though deep inside I do

Cause I'm afraid you might see through ,

And

Know how much I'm scared of losing someone like you <3