the chaotuutts : )

`the CHAOtuts : )

My friends , beloved friends . For once I've actually felt that I've been appreciated by friends . Never once I felt this way . I've always been betrayed by the ones I trusted most before . But now I'm glad I have them :) Yes maybe I do not know them well enough yet , But so far they've been an awesome friend guiding me all this way . They LOVE me & I LOVE them too :)

First of all , Yong JunYi `Mickey WanSean , & Cookies :)

These 3 friends of mine , they have never neglected me in anyways . Anywhere or shall I say Everywhere they plan to go , or anyhow any functions they will sure definitely call me along :) They will never leave me out , 4 of us will always call each other out when we have any plans going on :) yumcha session , outings , movie , & shopping spree . I'm really glad for knowing them i've never regretted since the day I know them until now . When I have my difficulties in my problem , whether it's love crisis or family crisis or friend crisis , they are ALWAYS there for me by my side when I need them most . A shoulder to cry on , & they'll put a smile :) on my face !

As times goes by , we will get to know each other better & more :) That's when we build our friendship more , :) I hope that this friendship will never end . You are the BEST .

FriendsForever , aii ni men ai dao baooo <3

Love ,

CherylTehShuYing :)

`memories

today was just an ordinary normal day . woke up in the afternoon & had nasi lemak for branch :)

then got baack to my bed & slept . don't know why felt so tired . slept till about in the evening woke up , got up & wash up for dinner . had dinner at a steamboat buffet with family nearby my area :) was superb full . god knows why today i ate so much "MEAT" my sister thought i was crazy literally .then after that we head to digital mall , to get printer ink :) next stop was oneutama , popular bookstore :) sister wants to get her books , but ending up there don't have the books she want , so we head home after . that's about my day for today , but somehow or rather i don't know why am i feeling so down & felt like im just in darkness , My eyes are like "panda" eyes now .

i think for now , that's about it . will update more soon :)

When it rains you don't see the sun , but it's there

Hope we can be like that ,

We don't always see each other ,

But we will always be there for each other <3

`maplestory

`MapleStory`Bankai`PrivateServer`Scania :)

recently just started maplestory back : )

but it's private server ! bankai , scania . Been really bored nowadays so i play for the fun of it .

Anyways more updates to come ! cause i'm dead tired , heading to bed now !

NIGHTS all <3>

`the latest me : )

`The ctsy aka CherylTehShuYing `

Okay finally ive decided to update my blog . So much has been happening lately , I dont even know what's actually the right and the wrong thing anymore . Im no longer the girl who knows which is correct or wrong , true or false . I feel so lost now in this world . After ending all this I felt heartbroken my heart seems so empty without you , only you knew who i was , what i am, what i love , where I like to go . Where what how everything about me , you're just the only one that knows , even my own mom don't know me that well as you . I really don't mind that you're gone , my heart will just be fill with emptyness . I dont hope nor wish for more , even getting to see or glance you for a far sight is more than enough than to dream to have you . Getting to talk , wave , hug , text or call on the cell phone , Im more than enough happy & dare not to wish for more. Its like just a miracle , you never knew how i felt because ive never told you . Imissyou alot , so much that no one ever knows . My life is just so complicated & confusing now . I just hope i can go thru this & get over and done with , if it's as simple as it seems . This is not studying abc , So i know . Its difficult . Nothing is easy in this world , Ive promised myself that I will stay strong & go thru all this day by day , if not one day I will faint by the roadside and no one knows about it. Im afraid that ill step my foot back into the world of darkness and shallow place where i can see no lights , :(

` I don't want to say I miss you , though deep inside I do

Cause I'm afraid you might see through ,

And

Know how much I'm scared of losing someone like you <3

TropicanaCityMall :)

`TropicanaCityMall :)

So it's at night already , suppose to follow lennon out in the afternoon , then tak jadi ,

suppose to have dinner with him mum , korean food also tak jadi .

So i remembered my friend zhi was hacing this event in TCM :) but by the time I go the event already ended . But she will still be there , & was supposed to have dinner with her

then she told me she have to makan with the committee members , then i remembered daniel

got comment on my status , about smthng so i asked him to come to TCM along :)

CAUSE he stay so near ! So i know he will come for me :P Right dlyx ? After that left the house

and went there , met zhi in the middle of the stage there she intro me to her 2 guy friends ,

which i think is very siao de . Haha ! Back to the point after that I waited for daniel to come , while zhi went to eat dinner already , So when daniel came we decided to try the new shop in TCM vivo , in curve also got . It's like a pizza shop :)

after that , i went for movie , with another friend of mine :)

watched `the fantastic water babes` :)

It was stupid laaa that movie , anyways let the pictures do the talking ! :D

Dlyx , DanielLeeYongXin :)

loves <3

Morning yumcha's sessions :)

`Morning yumcha's sessions :)

My brother ChanLennon :)

Anyways , most of the morning will surely yumcha with my bro , brandon , jon & me .

Eating almost same food every morning weih , damn sien ! Haha .

That's about it , I was too bored so I camwhored with my bro :)

`here are the pictures :)

The recents updates :)

`The recents updates :)

`TheDingDong Family :)`

Got to know alottt of new friends :) I have a new pet brother named Chan Lennon !

His one awesome brother , serious shit. Love him till bites ! :) Haha . Whenever I'm in problems and all he will always be there for me , his loves me as his sister of course DUH ! :D

& one of his buddy name Brandon Gavin :) sorry i revil

ed your last name , knwing him on the first day he bought me a zippo ? and a pair of earring , which we both have one side each !

I know so sweet kan ? :) His an awesome dingdo

ng , love him ti the max , :D

his always there for me as well when i'm like emo ans shits , but one thing i hate most is

making him pissed off over m

e , and seenig him being angry . It's so scary !

Like ohmygod weih you can diie seeing him so angry with that face.

our lepak place mostly is at pyramid :) eating in kimgary or wujia , never change venue .

Unless we want to eat somewhere else . Hmm recently we've been going out afew times edy i think

with my brother lennon , jesseca , jeffrey piong :)

latest update went to chee10 with brandon , and my childhood friends :) my this good brother

is a FFK king he named himself that ! so yeah , he ffked me and brandon because

he can't wake up laa , how nice can that be .

&

now currently having my finals for my first sem , can't wait till it's actually over ,

but even it's over I wont even have a peaceful life for now . Yes at some part I am happy .

In another side of it nope I'm under alot of pressure and stress , about shit loads of things

then my so called boyf bef

ore this "äexchewsoonteck"

his like somehow or rather out from my life , cause we broke up already .

I think most people that knew th

is is very happy for me , haha .

cause ive been treated this way even when we are friends , so yeah .

we just have to move on :)

now some little pictures for updates !

will update another post real soon!

loves :)

My sister ElaineTeh :)

This is my brother ChanLennon :)

This is The one and only dingdong brandon :)

`I'M LOST`

baby please tell me , what do you want me to do now ? you want me to change not to lie .
I did , do you know ? I'm scared , I'm really really afraid of you now . seriously tell me what to do as well . everyone can see changes in me now , why can't you see anything ? if it was the me last time i already burst and cannot tahan and i wouldn't agree with you all these conditions . Please babyy I feel without you in my life , my life is in sorrows . What should i do now . Even I'm in college now , Im not doing anything behind your back . I'm just a normal girl in college . People knows that i have a boyf now it's just we're in the middle of settling our problems . Thats it . there's no one want to kao me or any shit . Seriously please . Im sorry for what ive done . i know what i did was wrong . But don't i deserve the last and final chance please ?

ACST~CTSY

i really do love you
from the bottom of my heart

`Frustrated every single day `

FRUSTRATED !

Every single day I'm going thru shit things , GOD knows .

What should I do now ? Tell me someone , Just cause you want FACE ? , your EGO ?

What is this man , seriously . You're not the only one suffering going thru this every single day . Yes I know you told me you're doing this is to let me feel how I treated you before . Yes i know . Being in this stupid effing position now , SUCKS badly ! YES YES YES i admit now i know how it feels , without you in my life , without you with me for a day my life sucks badly . I know I said this to you once before and is to let you feel and taste your own medicine how you're treating me. But now it's KARMA . What goes around comes around . Now i really do know how it feels . I'm sorry . but everyone in my family members , my friends all is telling me you're doing this just to satisfied yourself ! you're effing SELFISH as well . don't come and say is me . And you're effing CHILDISH ! out of 10 people , 10 people tell me the same thing . Cause now what you're trying to do to me is like make me beg back for you , make me suffer and see how long i can take it , so when people do ask you why you couple back with me ? you GOT something to say right ? by saying cause she beg me so badly laa and do this do that for me la , and all the SHIT you think i dont know ah ? PLEASE FYI i'm not that dumb la okay . i'm NOT a dumb BLONDE ! yes i know what i did was wrong but " one hand can't clap" you know it better yourself . Ive got nothing more to say edy . The hope is in your hand . sighs .

That's the latest update .

my hearts is broken

and feelings fading away.

`Frustrated`

FML !



HELLLOOO peopleee . I know i haven been blogging for a long time .
and I shall start updating everyone alittle what's going on with my life.
Never really thought my life could be "fuckedup" until this way lo.
Sighs , anyways that's not the point . Firstly I've started college on the 29th march
in taylor's PJ :) I'm taking diploma in communication.
My classes started yesterday , it was ok laa not so bad after all .
But not knowing anyone is SHIT haha! College life is seriously much much more different
than highscool . Hmm these few days I got to know afew friends which are jean's
classmates , and come of my own classmates lo. Then Yiching is in the same campus as me ,
taking the same course but she's foundation , so have been hanging out with her much lately .

AND so , my boyfriend thing
recently broke up with him , and all the shit la . I'm really sick of talking about it edy .
I'm effing stress thinking about all this shit everyyday lo.
Sigh now we're friends only bah, god knows we still have a chance together a not .
But seems to me he really is like trying to forget about me already altho he keep saying
"you know i actually really still love you" he can tell me he deleted all our photo and my photos in his phone , his fb our memories folder he deleted it also . So I actually got no words to say .
That's all for now , I'm going to head to bed soon cause I'm super tired .

Having class tmrw at 8am !
NIGHTS all :)

loving you is hard enough,
but being dump with you hurts most

gyymm :)

TrueFitness babyy :D

Started true fitness on monday :) brought jan along for one week trial class .
I think she enjoyed it very much ! HAHA by swimming everyday kan?
Lols , anyways our timing eveyrday will fetch Jan around 5 something to 7 something range.
Then after tht we end it about 9 plus or 10 plus . HOPING Jan will actually join :D
so yeahh Had coffee bean on monday cause Jan passed her driving exam GRATS !
so "belanja-ed" her , Lol that the end laa lazyy bloggg !

Let the pictures do the talking then , Nights dead tired after swimming :P

pain and hurt , heartbroken

I've take in more than enough.

I feel maybe it's really the time , things are getting from bad to worst seriously.
Don't you ever felt that ? and you said it to me yourself. I really just don't know
You said you're bored of me , no confident in me and
"I'M HOLDING THE ENDING OF THE ROPE IT CAN DROP ANYTIME"
what's that suppose to mean ? and saying " I can break up 1 minute later?
1hour ? 1day ?1 week ? You really feel like ending this you may.
I can't force you again once youve made your decision
telling me "what if you ask me to let go ?"what the heck man? I seriously don't know .
what you really want , tell me !



I really do think it's time , maybe we're just not meant to be.

6th month Anniversary

Today's our 6th month anniversary (;
28.02.10


We've been together 6th months now , I can't believe it myself too ;)
You've been a miracle to me . the one i will love till thee end of my life .
Never knew we could come till this day , We've been thru too much.
All the arguements , quarrels , sad and happy moments.
Without you today my life wouldn't be this great either.
You mean so much to me , Yes I know sometimes you and I could be a pain in the ass
To each other , this is love , relationship how we been thru this much.
All i want to say is you've been there for me when I needed you most in my life.

I love YOU !
Wo Ai Ni 1314 3344 (;

iloveyouAlexChew<3

my Valentine (;

my Valentine's day (;

Valentine day just passed not long ago , had an amazing night . I went to OU he asked me to wait for him at the centre of the new wing there , where they had that chinese new year cat there. so i waited my back was facing the cat suddenly he brought a bouquet of roses and a cute little doggie on top of it , and that was my valentine present ! THANKS BI so much ! iloved it real much . I know this post is real lates sorry , didn't have the time to blog about it.

got a picture of it , will update more soon in the camera (;

ily babylexx <3

I'm back with maple :)

Back with maplestory (; when i wasn't cashy yet . Lols.

my first maple dar ;) x3MrLuffy , after that we went amoria to get married .
Lols he sponsored everything. then after marriage we divorced.
All this time the only person beside me was of cause Jan and Starfishzx aka George.
Lols after that he told me don't have to find anymore dar i beocme your dar.
so we couple till now i'm waiting for him to online back after 2months :) his comp spoil =x

that's all will update more soon after jan send me the pics . Lols and GLuck tmrw in driving
exam jan ! :D JYJY lols . byeee

loves BabyLexx <3
currently studying my undang ! taking exam next weeks!

soon to be half a year :)

BABY"S VIDEO :D
his birthday celebration was GREAT turn out AWESOME .
Finally i can actually rest and sleep well , cause ive been planning this for weeks already.
Bi , i hope you know i love you and i did this all just for you . Here's your video (:

the rest of the pictures to be uploaded later .

WEBBIE with SI BEN DAN daniel leeee (:

WEBBIE with daniel leeeee yong xin :D
was STUPID but funnyyy.
he made me laugh when tonight i was in the moody mood :(
THANKS XD hehe.
owe you one (:

ONG JO LEEN <3

My bestie went to hospital ytd ! she never tell me ! until today .
I hope she's doing fine. OJL must stay strong oh ! Ask you take care of your health never listen de. i'll try my best come visit you if possible okay ? You now on drip somemore ! damn cham le . :( sobs . come back le let me know yah !

OJL TAKE CARE AH :D

your bestie SHU (:

Things are just running thru my mind

firstly shifted house to a floor down.
so currently i'm staying in 5th floor now
after shifting few days later was prom.
went to prom with bi , it was not bad.
so it ended about 12 something fetch chikit to nicole's house.
cause they going yumcha or something.

here are some pictures :)
pictures from my camera haven't transfer, sorry for the delay ppl.