`I'M LOST`

baby please tell me , what do you want me to do now ? you want me to change not to lie .
I did , do you know ? I'm scared , I'm really really afraid of you now . seriously tell me what to do as well . everyone can see changes in me now , why can't you see anything ? if it was the me last time i already burst and cannot tahan and i wouldn't agree with you all these conditions . Please babyy I feel without you in my life , my life is in sorrows . What should i do now . Even I'm in college now , Im not doing anything behind your back . I'm just a normal girl in college . People knows that i have a boyf now it's just we're in the middle of settling our problems . Thats it . there's no one want to kao me or any shit . Seriously please . Im sorry for what ive done . i know what i did was wrong . But don't i deserve the last and final chance please ?

ACST~CTSY

i really do love you
from the bottom of my heart

`Frustrated every single day `

FRUSTRATED !

Every single day I'm going thru shit things , GOD knows .

What should I do now ? Tell me someone , Just cause you want FACE ? , your EGO ?

What is this man , seriously . You're not the only one suffering going thru this every single day . Yes I know you told me you're doing this is to let me feel how I treated you before . Yes i know . Being in this stupid effing position now , SUCKS badly ! YES YES YES i admit now i know how it feels , without you in my life , without you with me for a day my life sucks badly . I know I said this to you once before and is to let you feel and taste your own medicine how you're treating me. But now it's KARMA . What goes around comes around . Now i really do know how it feels . I'm sorry . but everyone in my family members , my friends all is telling me you're doing this just to satisfied yourself ! you're effing SELFISH as well . don't come and say is me . And you're effing CHILDISH ! out of 10 people , 10 people tell me the same thing . Cause now what you're trying to do to me is like make me beg back for you , make me suffer and see how long i can take it , so when people do ask you why you couple back with me ? you GOT something to say right ? by saying cause she beg me so badly laa and do this do that for me la , and all the SHIT you think i dont know ah ? PLEASE FYI i'm not that dumb la okay . i'm NOT a dumb BLONDE ! yes i know what i did was wrong but " one hand can't clap" you know it better yourself . Ive got nothing more to say edy . The hope is in your hand . sighs .

That's the latest update .

my hearts is broken

and feelings fading away.

`Frustrated`

FML !



HELLLOOO peopleee . I know i haven been blogging for a long time .
and I shall start updating everyone alittle what's going on with my life.
Never really thought my life could be "fuckedup" until this way lo.
Sighs , anyways that's not the point . Firstly I've started college on the 29th march
in taylor's PJ :) I'm taking diploma in communication.
My classes started yesterday , it was ok laa not so bad after all .
But not knowing anyone is SHIT haha! College life is seriously much much more different
than highscool . Hmm these few days I got to know afew friends which are jean's
classmates , and come of my own classmates lo. Then Yiching is in the same campus as me ,
taking the same course but she's foundation , so have been hanging out with her much lately .

AND so , my boyfriend thing
recently broke up with him , and all the shit la . I'm really sick of talking about it edy .
I'm effing stress thinking about all this shit everyyday lo.
Sigh now we're friends only bah, god knows we still have a chance together a not .
But seems to me he really is like trying to forget about me already altho he keep saying
"you know i actually really still love you" he can tell me he deleted all our photo and my photos in his phone , his fb our memories folder he deleted it also . So I actually got no words to say .
That's all for now , I'm going to head to bed soon cause I'm super tired .

Having class tmrw at 8am !
NIGHTS all :)

loving you is hard enough,
but being dump with you hurts most